Womb of a Black Woman

Strength thorough abandonment
Tears of joy and pain
Fear of the unknown living thing
That grows inside of me
Doubts consume questions arise
But everything faded when I looked into your eyes
What it took for you to get here
Seems distant
I watch you grow
See his face in yours
But I don’t seem to hate you
The 9 months I carried you he was not there
It was just the 2 of us
Our bond became stronger
As his and mine became broken
But with your birth came my rebirth and his death
I cherish you
Even though at times I have regrets
And think about how my life would be easier without…
I don’t mean that
I NEED A BREAK!!!
I wish I had help but I don’t
That’s not your fault, you are not to blame
And I’ll be damned if you ever see my
Pain, Lonliness, Anxieties, My Bitterness
All you will ever see is your mommy
A strong black woman who did it on her own
Shared my womb
Allowed you to hear my heart from the inside
We are one
And I pray for the day to come
Where you understand what you mean to me

<3 always the Black Mother