Fun & Games

Dear____________,

You're all fun and games. I guess part of me loved that about you. But your inability to show emotion, to actually show me you care has broken my heart. Yeah we've had some good times but that doesn't seem to be able to outweigh the bad anymore. I know what you're going to say, we're in college why not have some fun? But what happens when college is over, are we going to be over? I have so many questions for you, so many doubts about you. It's really hard for me to trust people let alone you. I don't even know why I am writing you this letter. I'm doubting you're even taking this seriously. I am about to be a senior in college and I need something that you're just not ready or willing to give me. You think shots and sex is a remedy for everything. I need stability, trust, loyalty, love. Can you give this to me? It was fun while it lasted, but it's been 3 years of me hoping for you to grow up and hoping things would change. It's hurting me to let go. It's hard because I've gotten comfortable with you, with our so called relationship, but the truth is I settled. I looked past your flaws and your inability to be faithful and to commit and my heart has payed the price. I wish I was more like you, I wish I could have a barrier around my heart so I can be as unaffected as you are. But things aren't that simple. So for the good times we had I smile and laugh and for all the bad times I cry and my heart breaks even more. I thought you were going to change my mind about relationships but I guess not. So I'm leaving you with this letter, though I'm sure you will be fine. Hey cheers to our end go buy a drink on me, I know you'll find more pleasure in that that you ever did with me.